Quarter Life Crisis.

'HOW DO I WANT TO SPEND MY TIME?'

'WHAT DO I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE?'

'DOES MY JOB DEFINE ME?'

So I'm having a quarter-life crisis. Legit. These questions are all I seem to think about recently. When I moved to Leeds, I had big plans to fill my afternoons with blogging, making friends and making memories. 

7 months down the line and I've got a list full of draft posts I've not even finished, never mind posted and during the week, I just don't do anything.

I seem to live to work and it's genuinely making me miserable. I know, classic millenial entitlement right? It just bogs me down to no end that I spend the majority of time working. Don't get me wrong - I LOVE my job. I really do. 

BUT IS THIS IT? IS THIS ALL THERE IS? IS MY JOB MY WORTH? DOES MY JOB DEFINE ME?

When I get home, at 1:30pm everyday. I'm so knackered. I obviously have all these plans - but all I want to do - and what I actually do - is get into bed. I sit and watch Netflix for hours on end and then I'll think about making a quick tea - usually consisting of bagels with some form of topping.

I fear, that when I get older, when I look back at my life - it's going to have been spent in bed.

'HOW DO I WANT TO SPEND MY TIME?'

This week, I turned 26 years old. I keep telling everyone I'm '25 again' - I'm partly kidding, but I'm also really struggling to accept that my world is running away with me and I'm so far from control. I feel like I'm at a turning point. This is my life. How do I want it to look?

I've decided to set myself a few goals; to be in place until the end of the year. Hopefully by New Year - I'll be able to look at myself and feel proud of what I've achieved.

SELFCARE

- RUN. 3x a week. - it can be 20 minutes or 20 miles I don't care. Just get out and run.

- DRINK water. 3litres per day.

- EAT proper meals. COOK. Don't just shove a bagel in. Use your slow cooker. Use the cook books.

- NO MORE BOOZING. It's not fun - you don't like it - you hate yourself the next day.

- MEDITATE - Daily. Make the time for self care - even if it's only minutes. Positive affirmations.

- FRIENDSHIPS - make time for them - let go of the pain. 

FINANCE

- FALL back in love with the job.

- CREATE packages and bulletins you're proud of.

- STAY where you are. It's okay to be in one place. Work at it. Stop looking at Masters courses. 

- SAVE some money - £5000 in your bank by the end of the year. Not to be touched.
- BUY a house - stop spending rent.

Suit: Primark
Body: Vintage
Heels: New Look
Smile: Bday Balloon induced.